Shape Shifting (1)
In over my head
Didn’t know the depth
I dived into
The deceptiveness
Of the calm
Hearing a promise
Of salvation
Under the surface
So much more
I didn’t want to see
Blinders on
Undertows
Grab hold of me
By the ankles
Yanking firmly
Sucking me down
Down
Down
Bubbles escape
All around me
I struggle
Wear myself out
Exhausted
I am lost
I cannot find myself
I am deceived
Struggle stops
I withdraw
Make myself small
Maybe this
Is how
I will survive
My soul whispers
My name
It is familiar
Like a breeze
Lightly on my skin
It is almost inaudible
With the din
Around me
Can I make myself smaller
Hide in plain view
I am sad
Angry
Poison
Is running
Through my veins
Hatred
Like I’ve never experienced
Before
Who is this person
Where did she come from
My soul whispers
My name
The undertow
Yanks me
Deeper
Into the abyss
I am lost
From the surface
Gazing through
The slight distortions
Of the water
I look calm
Only the occasional
Flicker
Gives clues
To onlookers
About the extent
Of chaos
Turmoil
Permeating
Every aspect
Of my being
My soul
Whispers
Louder
Calling my name
Begins to send
Messengers
Of hope
In unexpected
Delightful
Confusing
Illuminating ways
The water heats up
The seas
Unleash
The full
Fury
Of the storm
I am lost
Ahh
Ahh
But now
My soul
My soul’s journey
Is calling my name
Loud
Louder
Clearly
Beckoning me
Gently
Here
Here is your path
Here are
Your messengers
Here is your support
Drums
Guides
People
Places
Events
Timing
Open your heart
Tear down your walls
Tentative
Brick by brick
Peering out
Feeling
Little rays
Of light
Hope
Finding centre
Finding ground
The storm
Looms again
I rise
To meet the storm
STORM BE GONE!
Facing down
Ego
Facing down
Judgment
Self judgment
The most insidious of all
Yes!
You are safe
We’ve got you
You’ve got yourself
Love
Openly
Joyfully
Love is buoyant
Like a cloud
You will float
To the surface
I am finding
My way
Trusting
Just a little bit
Feeling buoyancy
Feeling joy
Letting go
Surrendering
Am I done yet
Can I graduate
What
No certificate
Life long
Life affirming
Why you are here
Surrendering
More fully
Trusting
More fully
Beauty
Unexpected delights
Surety of path
The how
Drifting off
Into the ether
Materializing
In its own
Unexpected
Glorious
Ways
I am found
My voice is found
My ground
My path
I am birthing
My soul
Is singing
Celebrating
Without the storm
Without drowning
I would still
Be lost
Kathy – thank you for the great word journey.
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