I’ve arrived. I didn’t know this was where I was going but, now that I’m here, I can clearly see that this is where I was headed. Feels good to have arrived. In this moment anyway. In the next moment, it might be different. That will be okay too because there will always be a next moment and I get that I get to create or co-create the next moment and the next.
By moment, I mean a period of time, linear time as we know it – maybe just a minute, maybe days, weeks, months or even years. When it is a tortuous moment that goes on for awhile it doesn’t seem like this moment, it seems like an eternity. I’ve had a few of those too. Looking back now over the course of my life, I see them for what they are – moments, in time, moments that reflect my journey and shape my life, my outlook, my wisdom and my experience.
Now, though, I seem to be in a moment of amazing open heartedness. I’m just back from a run in my neighbourhood that takes me to a waterfront park and boardwalk and back again. Every time I smile, nod or say hello to someone I pass, I crack open just a touch more. And, so do they. The moment might pass for them, but more and more I am finding this moment in my life lingering.
I like the feel of this moment. The joy. Delight. Ease. Beauty. Love. Flow. Noticing my emotional state. Noticing my reactions. Noticing where or what next to focus on in my own healing journey. Not in the tortuous way I used to notice it. Now it is just a noticing. An observation. A clue to what to pay attention to. “Oh, look at that response. Maybe there is something there to take a look at, a hook to release, an attachment to let go of.” Surfacing. Surrendering. Swift, powerful movement arising all around me, in me, through me.
It is visible to me. It is continuously reflected back to me because it is visible to others and I am open to receiving in whole new ways. Some people comment. Some just notice. Some come closer. Some rejoice with me. In the people close to me, I see how much they love me and I feel how much I love them. Feeds gratitude, appreciation and joy over and over again.
I have always believed in the Law of Attraction. I have also understood that I have attracted even the things, people, situations I have not liked (and sometimes detested) into my life. Wanting to understand deeply the why of that was one of those moments of determination that led to many moments of revelation over a very long, tortuous moment in my life.
I tried to make the Law of Attraction work and at times I probably gave up – almost anyway – on being able to force it work in ways that work for me. There are times it practically pounded me on the head while I was looking in other directions, focused on the how of things instead of the surrendering into things where truly miraculous “hows” could then show up in ways I could never have imagined.
Through the continuing journey I am learning how to allow, embrace, surrender and step into it. Coming from a place of love, joy and delight. Which is very different than coming at it from a place of desperation. My favourite Law of Attraction material at the moment is Abraham-Hicks. I have been infusing myself with their teachings. One of the things they say is that whenever we want something, that something is actually two things – what we want and the lack of what we want. Usually we are focused on the lack and not on what we want and we are desperately, pleadingly trying to convince ourselves, through stress and agony, we are focused on what we want. Focusing on the lack brings, surprise, surprise, more lack.
They also say a belief is simply a thought we think over and over again. So, I’m becoming aware of my repetitive thoughts so I can shift them and shift the shape of my life more and more to what I want. Since really embracing this, I am seeing and, more importantly, feeling the results. In this moment, I’ve arrived. I like this place. I’m not exactly sure where I am headed next but now I know I’ll recognize it when I arrive and I know it will be even better than the place I am in in this moment – as hard as that may be for some to believe – I am aware that life, if I allow it, will only get better and better, no matter how good it is right now.
While I’m in this moment that I’ve arrived in, I’m taking some time to celebrate. To notice flow. To appreciate deep relationships. To see how well cared for and nourished I am. And maybe tomorrow, when I’m out for my run or grocery shopping or wherever my day may take me, maybe you and I will find each other, smile, nod, say hello, embrace if we actually know each other, say I love you if we are in deep relationship – and both our worlds will crack open just that much more and we will know that we have arrived – in this new moment, for the moment.